My Boyfriend is a Cutie

Its a little hard to read, but :]

Linger.

Ahh. I really need to finish WHAP today so I can relax and do my color collage for Kennett tomorrow. Yuuckk. DX Luckily, everyone says the WHAP questions are relatively simple. Thankgoodness. I finished 1 in about 20 minutes, if you really think about it. If I subtract all of my distractions :]. YeahYeah. Blahblahblah. BoredBoredBored. WHAP TIME. Okay. Bye!

CTRL+F

Today, I realized I spend way too much time on the computer. I grabbed the menu at the restaurant, glanced at the page, and tried to do CTRL+F to find seafood. Geek coming through! FML

FunDay :D

Totally AMAZING day today. :DDD. Crepes in French, Well, BIO was stupid. GEO i actually UNDERSTAND! WHAP, he said i did Good in my presentation. whootwhoot. Graphic design, I have half of my project finished. YESS!!!
My life is going Goooood. for the most part :DD
A. I have an amazing boyfriend who likes me for who I am
B. Rikki likes my amazing boyfriend, so I can keep him :]
C. My Homies are awesome
1. My grades are gooooood
2. I'm losing weight. YESS!
3. I've reconnected with my UNICEF buds!

AH! i feel so amazering. Today was fun. Rikki had fun camwhoring with my camera. Took like. 40 pics of me and Roan. Looll. HE SAW MY FEEEEET DX. Umm. I need to charge batteries for tomorrow, because Roan and I will be wearing matching SHIRTS :OO.
Also, I need to bake some cooookies for tomorrow. I have enough baggies, thankgoodness DX. YAY Yay YAAYYY. just watch, later one today ill feel like Shiiizzznittzz

So, my kid's names are going to be
Jasper James
Mimzy Mignonette
Lucy Levon
Ahght Andrew
Kracken Khonnor(maybe)
Ferarri Fleur
Cloud Calla (maybe)

Bold names are for sure. :]

Baggage

I'm carrying so much emotional baggage right now. Roan's running for the hills. DX I hate it, we haven't even been together 2 weeks and hes already running. Matviy, save me. DX these things are driving me crazy, and i dont know what to do. Nothing is helping. It feels like parts of me are being ripped away. Its hard to breathe, i'm always on the verge of tears, but nothing ever comes out.

TEN things you wish you could say to TEN different people right now:
1. What did I do to deserve this?
2. Wow, I'm crushing.
3.I Love you.
4. BSB are awesome!
5. I want FroYo.
6. I want Tapioca Express.
7. Build a bridge, and get over it.
8. I miss you, terribly.
9. AIEE! HUUGG!
10. Pocky, Thi Wants.

NINE things about yourself:
1. It takes alot for me to cry.
2. I love religious music.
3. I love the idea of love.2
4. I have trust issues.
5. I have alot of emotional baggage.
6. I love hugs.
7. I love BSB and BIG BANG
8. I don't think very much of myself
9. I think quite alot.

EIGHT ways to win your heart:
1. Be upfront
2. Dont play games
3. Be sincere
4. Dont force me to do anything
5. Know what my favorite flower is
6. Dont eat Hersheys, Mars, or Nestle
7. Write me mooshygooshy letters
8. Give amazing hugs.

SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot:
1. My future
2. Death
3. My boyfriend
4. Jeshieua
5. My bad self esteem.
6. The weather
7. Song Lyrics

SIX things you do before you go to bed:
1. Check/charge phone
2. Think about my day
3. Think of what to wear tomorow
4. Check the weather
5. Shut the door
6. Think about things that matter.

FIVE people who mean a lot.
1. RikkiTikiSunshine <--HomieG that helps me through it
2. RoanButtercupVanDyk <-- Boyfriend thats there for me.
3. VIVZ! <-- HELPS ME THROUGH IT ALLLL
4. Ha Duong <-- Spazzer!/HomeworkHelper
5. MATVIY KOTONY <-- My ROCK.

FOUR things you’re wearing right now.
1. Headphones
2. Bracelets
3. Socks
4. Underwear.

THREE songs that fit your life perfectly.
1. UpUpUp by Rose Falcon
2. Because of you by Kelly Clarkson
3. Reflection by Christina Aguilera

TWO things you want to do before you die:
1. love myself
2. Streak.

ONE confession:
I have immense issues with letting people in. Too many people have hurt me. Because of this, I have trust issues, and cannot commit to a relationship. I bolt if he starts getting to close. I'm trying to fix myself for my new boyfriend.

To do

To Do:
Timeline
WHAP powerpoint
Double Entry Journal
Geometry
Bio Extra Credit

Sometimes you make me feel..

Yeah, sometimes, I wake up in the morning and I want to roll over and Die. I wish i could cry, I havent for How long? It's terrible.. All of these emotions and they only go in. I feel cold when I.

Wither.

Blog about someone special.
So, I don't think anyone knows this, but when my someone special makes me sad, I physically wilt. Like, literally. I can feel my eyes get sad. Its odd. My special someone makes me wilt often, only when we're talking online though. Is that healthy? I don't know. I feel so uptight, though. Getting all withered when he says something that hurts my feelings.. Idunno, I'm trying to change...

ViyViy2

ViyViy, you don't read this. But, If you do, i love you dearly. (completely platonic, dont get any ideas!)You keep me sane when im about to go insane. Its crazy. You keep my head level, you make me think, laugh, smile, work hard. You make me believe in myself, its as if youre my life coach with pretty eyes. :] My 2nd life coach. Numbero 1 is Ms. Lee. sorry, dear. :]

Undeserving

So, you, Yes you. You give me odd feelings. I have a GIGANTIC crush on you. But you make me feel so guiilttyy. You waited for an Hour? Such a sweetheart. I don't deserve you.

I have a boyfriend.

And i think hes wonderful. :]