I just don't know what to do. Is your life better without me? Are you glad we aren't together anymore? Was I just turning into baggage? I feel so broken. I thought you loved me. Do you even miss me? Do you have any feelings left? I can be the girl you loved. I promise. I won't be negative anymore. I promise to be the fun, nice girl that you loved before. I didn't realize I was being so negative and unlikable. I can be a Christian. I change back. That girl you love is still in me. I promise. Just give me another chance. I know I sound pathetic and everything, but I've never loved anybody this much. I don't know what to do without you. I feel so lost and alone. I'll be whatever you want me to be. I promise. Just come back to me. Please?
I wish I had never brought anything up. I wish I could turn back time and just leave it as it was. I wish you told me you were getting annoyed. I wish you had just talked to me and told me my negativity was getting annoying. I would have stopped. I'll do anything for you.

Does he even miss me?
I miss him. I miss everything about him. I just want him back.
I'll do nearly anything to have Roan back. .. I almost typed My. He isn't mine anymore..
I'll convert for him
I'll be the way I was before for him. I.E. Happy
My negativity just kind of came out. I'm sorry Roan. I can change. I didn't realize I was being so negative.. I should have realized it bothered you. I'm sorry. I can change. I can be different.

I've never loved anybody this much. I don't want to lose him. I feel so.. lost without him.

So, I don't know what I did to make him stop loving me. Okay.. Yes I do. But, I'm a little over that. A little. I'm cried out. For the moment.
Watch it all come back tomorrow. DX
I guess its my fault. Loving someone this much cant be good for you. Whatever.
I'm not mad anymore. I'm glad he did it now rather than wait and let me fall even More in love with him. I could never hate him. I'll move on.
Everyone says that you can't be friends with your exes. I want to prove that wrong. If I can't be his girlfriend, I want to be his best friend. I don't want him out of my life. And I don't have a hidden agenda, I just.. Need him in my life, one way or another.
I don't know. I've just come so accustomed to his presence, and it would be weird to not talk to him or anything.

I really Love math.

Seriously, I love it. It is one of my absolute FAVORITE subjects. Ever.
I'm just.. incapable of .. Doing it. Haha. Pathetic, right?

I just love how my answer is either Right or Wrong. I can actually get 100% on a test, no questions asked. Its just 100%.
Not like in english, when if you get 100% on an essay or whatever, you're just like "did i really deserve that? Could I have done better?". Yeah. I love Math. I wish I was better at it though.

Stolen from Rikki!

1. Do not tell us when you think other girls are hot.
2. Whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say during commercials.
3. If you don’t act like soap-opera guys, don’t expect us to dress like Victoria Secret models.
4. Mark anniversaries on a calendar.
5. There is no such thing as too much spooning.
6. This is how we see it … Don’t call = Don’t Care.
7. Which also means that if we don’t call, take the hint.
8. We like you to be a little jealous … but overly possessive is not necessary.
9. Putting things in our butt does not turn us on.
10. We’re allowed to be late … you are not.
11. Eye contact is key.
12. Don’t take longer to get ready than we do.
13. Laugh at our jokes.
14. Three words … honesty, honesty, honesty.
15. Girls can be groupies. Guy groupies are stalkers.
16. Do not start with us. You will not win.
17. Would you like it if a guy treated your sister that way? We didn’t think so.
18. If you ask nicely, we usually answer the same way.
19. We will never have enough clothes or shoes!
20. We have an excuse to act bitchy at least once a month.
21. Open the door for us no matter where we are … even at our house and getting into the car.
22. We love surprises!
23. We liked to be kissed softly, not with an iron tongue.
24. Pay attention to the little things we do, because they mean the most.
25. Boxers and maybe boxer briefs sometimes … NEVER whitey-tighties, NEVER!
26. Clean your room before we come over.
28. Always brush your teeth before you see us … a fresh mouth and white teeth are a necessity.
29. Even though you are sometimes insensitive and hurt us, we still love you with everything we are.
30. Hit it and quit it, because later I’ll be with your best friend and he lasts for hours.
31. Sometimes “NO!” really means “NO!”
32. “Wife Beaters” are not an adequate form of fashion.
33. Sensitive guys are great … but crying more than we do in a movie just isn’t right.
34. Don’t let ex-girlfriends cause drama, relationships are stressful enough.
35. It takes a special kind of stupid to forget birthdays.
36. Guys who are good cuddlers = guys who know how to satisfy a woman.
37. “Fat Chicks” have feelings too.
38. Silent treatment, shoulder shrugs, tears, yelling and nasty looks all add up to … YOU DID SOMETHING WRONG!
39. If you are not a good dancer, please be self-aware.
40. Just because a girl doesn’t pick up on the first ring doesn’t mean she’s not waiting by the phone.
41. You don’t have to spend a lot ($$$), if it means a lot.
42. Don’t say you love me if you don’t mean it.
43. Don’t lie to us … we will catch you.

44. When the girls get together, we talk about EVERYTHING. Meaning my best friends know everything about you

Too True. Most of the things in here are too true. Should be like, the boy bible. I think ill write that one day. :D

SNOWGLOBES! <3

I had the most perfect day with Roan. Even if we were just chilling and eating and watching TV. Lol. We bonded while husking corn. It Pwned. Loll. Ah. I'm falling deeper in love with you each day. <3

* I WANT THIS.

This is probably The most comfortable way to sleep. Period. Thats all. End of story. Period. No Questions Asked. I wish i could sleep like that right now. Roan, get your butt over here! DX.